my WALK with GOD today – 19

How often should I forgive someone?

“It is my task as God’s child to forgive you 77 x 7,” I wrote to my friend, “but please don’t do it again to others.” I sent it by email, yet that was just a start of doing what Jesus said in Matthew 18:22. I have to go through the tunnel of forgiveness once again. I know it would not be easy.

Psalm 4:4 … a good number to remember, isn’t it? … has helped me, King David said, “Don’t sin by letting anger control you. Think about it overnight and remain silent.” I did it, and I experienced what David said in verse 8, “In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe.”

When I woke up, I got an email from YouVersion about reading plan, I choose the 4 days “forgiveness” plan. It works well. Today I came to this verse that I have quoted and said to my friend. I have been pondering, “How often should I forgive someone?” The answer is still the same… 77×7 … “You will never forgive anyone more than God forgiven you,” said Max Lucado on Twitter today. So true!

🙂 eva kristiaman

my WALK with GOD today – 18


“Eva, I have prayed for you as I sense you are going through a difficult time. I would like to suggest a book to you that might be worth reading. It is called ‘the Prodigal God’ by Tim Keller.” Wrote RB in an email on May 9, 2009, a pastor friend of mine who has a pastoral heart.

I thanked him, and immediately went to a Christian bookstore he suggested, to get that book. When I got the book, I opened it and read in the special page prior to Chapter 1: “prodigal” means recklessly, extravagant, to spend everything … WOW! Beautifully he made the reader go into the truth in Jesus’ parable of a Father who had two lost sons: the selfish youngest son and the self-righteous eldest son.

There is no forgiveness without cost, some one has to pay for it. The elder brother didn’t have the same heart as his Father’s. So we need the true elder brother, Jesus Christ, at His expenses we received the forgiveness we need the most. The Father loves us extravagantly, He gave His only Son—Jesus laid down His life for us. … When I came to that part, I was in tears and was whispering in my heart, “O, Lord, please give me a heart like Yours… .”

The Lord is so gracious to me, as He always is. In answering my prayer, I had to grow through loss and change, I must “work through” them. “Nothing develops our character like handling loss, and the change it brings,” said Bob Gass. It wasn’t easy, but He is with me all the time. He taught me all the lessons needed to, and led me into the depth of His truth.

… Contrary to the local culture the Father graciously grant his youngest son’s request, and then his son left him… deeply grieve caused by the cutting off relationship with his son, … he could neither see nor hear any news from his son, he went through the deep grieve and mourned like his son had passed away although he knew his son still alive, … It made me to understand why in tremendous joy the Father said, “My son was dead and now is alive again!”

The Father didn’t mourn all the time, when the time for mourning was completely over, … only wonderful love out of true forgiveness was in His heart for his son, … It has helped me to see that the most valuable gift the youngest son received from his Father was that kind of love and that kind of forgiveness out of a prodigal heart! Accept it and go into His banquet!

The Father had the same heart, love, and forgiveness for his eldest son, but we didn’t know  whether at last he made up his mind to go into the banquet or not … . The Lord Jesus left the story open.

The time for mourning was completely over, … I can only find that kind of love out of true forgiveness in my heart…  I could not even trace the scar anymore, perfectly healed!

🙂 eva kristiaman

my WALK with GOD today – 4

I watch the hand of him
who writes my sins upon the sand
and I wonder if it is not I
that should be stoned,
words of accusation thrown against me
in a court of law, on trial.
I look upon him who has wronged me
and see only someone who is scared.
So I hand my weighted stones
to Jesus of bitterness, anger and pain
and as He takes my rocks away
I noticed that He has already cleared my name
and all my sins erased.
Is forgiveness really so devine
or just a natural response
for He has paid this debt of mine.

– libby fraser